It is 5:30 in the morning and I can't sleep. Something is weighing heavy on my heart and I need to share with all of you who have read our news about being pregnant and may be coming back on here again. All my life I have struggled with fear of men and fear of people taking me the wrong way. God has set me free from this , well He has been working on my heart about this in the past 2 years. Fear has welled up it's ugly head once more the past few days and I need Jesus to set me free of it once again!
This blogger allows me to track how many people come on my blog and where and when they do. I have had 1000 tracks since we posted about our exciting news of being pregnant. We are really not out to get every one's approval or to get sweet comments, but I must say it does hurt to get mean ones or family just not responding at all. This is where I need to be on my face praying for my Heavenly Father to be ALL I need! He is the one who has given us this precious life and I should not care if everyone else does approve. But I do and I need His forgiveness and his love at this time. God Has saved me and He loves me and He has a plan for me:) I can rest in that even as I type these words I feel the tears welling up and the overwhelming Love that He has for me. A sinner, who has been saved, redeemed and set free!!!
Sean and I never set out to have a "big" family at all. We had Hunter, our first born son, and then Sean Peyton, our first born daughter. We were so over joyed with just the two of them. God had another plan and blessed us with our second born son Noah after having a horrible miscarriage. 4 months later, I was pregnant with Isaac and we were just as excited with the news of having another child to love. My mom always said that I loved babies growing up and would probably have many myself:) Well after Isaac came Anna Grace, Treasure, Farah Beth, Josiah and Eden. Before we get pregnant, Sean and I are in prayer about it, seeking God's face about whether it is his will for us to have another child. The Bible says that children are a blessing and we 100% believe this but we also know that we are called to train each of these precious children up in the Lord. With each one, that is what we are seeking the Lord about. Can we add another child into our family and train, love, nurture, and afford one more is always a thought before we ask the Lord to bless us. We are NOT perfect parents, and we fail daily in a lot of these areas but guess what? Our Father in Heaven does not fail us EVER!! He gives us grace every day. We can only make it by His strength.
Having children is not easy work. Having just one child is not easy work!! Each child is a unique soul that God has entrusted you with. Wow, we don't take that lightly at all. I don't want anyone to feel that we think every family should have lots of children. God has called us all to different things. My calling is first to love my husband and then to be a mommy and also to share with the world about Jesus! But, if you see a family who is larger than normal, please do not judge. Every family should have the right to be what they want to be and to raise their children how they want to. Love on your child today and thank God for him or her because they are a blessing and an inheritance from the Lord!!
God is always faithful! When we come to Him and lay our burdens down at his feet, He will take them and He will comfort you and strengthen you. I praise Him for that or otherwise I could not have made it with just Hunter. No, I could not have made it as just a wife to Sean. Jesus is my ALL and my EVERYTHING!!
So all of you moms wanting to know how we do it there it is. We can only be the parents God has called us to be by knowing Jesus and by communing with Him daily! So, if you think we are crazy for having another, that's ok. We have days where we think so too:) But then God reminds us that He has a plan for each of our children and He is in control. I can rest in that and in His love this early morning.